Kinabuhing Seminarista


Sa akong duha ka bulang pagpuyo isip seminarista dinhi sa Cor Jesu, daghan-daghan na pod ang mga panahon nga nakapangutana ko nga nganong naa man ko diri. I’m still 22 years old, ikanga there’s still a promising life for me outside. In fact, human sa akong graduation April last year, milangyaw ko dayon sa Cebu aron pagpangita ug trabaho. For 3 months nagtrabaho ko isip English-as-Second-Language teacher sa Philinter English Language School sa Lapulapu City.Pagkahuman, nagtrabaho na pod ko isip call center agent sa Accenture-Cebu City for 5 months. Adto nga time, aduna koy kwarta, mapalit nako ang akong gusto tungod kay kada kinsena naa man koy mapaabot. Pero ngano man nga mikalit lang man sa akong hunahuna ang kaikag nga magpari? Tinuod gyud, nga daghang mga butang sa kinabuhi nga di nato masabtan, apan tungod sa atong pagtuo atoang ginabuhat. Ug kinsa may makaingon nga sure na jud kaayo ko nga gitawag ko sa Ginoo, o nga sure na gyud kaayo ko nga mapari pohon? Wala, ug bisan ako wala gayud makasiguro. Sa tinuod, walay kasigurohan ang mahimong dagan sa akong kinabuhi sa umaabot gawas lang sa pagsalig sa Dios ug  pagsakay sa unsa may mahimong dagan niini.

Dili lalim ang kinabuhi  sulod sa seminaryo. Dili lalim kay kinahanglan ka nga momata ug alas-singko kada-buntag. Sa dihang mao pay pagsulod nako diri, matag-alas singko sa buntag, ana gyud nga panahona nga mogawas ang akong mga pangutana. Sa gawas, ako ang magbuot sa akoang panahon, ako ang magbuot kanus-a ko matulog  ug kanus-a ko momata, ako ang magbuot kanus-a ko mokaon ug dili ba noon ko mokaon, ug ako ang magbuot kung kanus-a ko magtuon o kung dili ba ako magtuon.  Ingon sa akong kaubang mga seminarista, ang among kinabuhi diri sa sulod usa lamang ka pribilehiyo ug dili katungod. Diri sa sulod sa seminaryo adunay bagting matag karon ug unya. Kwentada na ang imong buluhaton matag oras. Adunay higayon nga momata ako nga maghalang pa ang akong mata tungod kay nakulang ko sa tulog. Apan wala koy mahimo gawas sa pagbangon ug sa pagkaligo. Human niini, samtang nag-inanay pa lang ug silang ang adlaw mokanaog na kami ngadto sa kapilya alang sa among buntagong pag-ampo ug sunod niini ang misa. Ginabuhat namo kini matag adlaw.  Kasagaran ang pormasyon sa usa ka pari mokabat ngadto sa pulo ka tuig, ug hunahunaa nga ginabuhat namo kining adlaw-adlaw nga misa sulod sa pulo ka tuig sa amoang pagtuon. Subo kaayo nga hunahunaon nga ang kasagarang tawo mosimba lamang matag Domingo ug usahay makatulog pa gayud sulod sa misa.

Unsa may rason nganong gisulti ko kini, tungod ba kay ako nagmahay? Dili, ako hinoon nalipay tungod kay bisan sa kalisod nga akong gipaambit karon wala gayud misantop sa akong hunahuna ang moundang. Sa una, kinahanglan pa gayud nakong itulod akong kaugalingon alang sa pagsayo ug mata, pagtuon, ug uban pa. Apan karon, sa grasya sa Ginoo, naka-adjust na ko.

Human niining akong pagsulat karon magklase na usab ako taman sa alas-dose. Human niana, mobagting na alang sa among paniudto. Human sa paniudto mobagting na pod alang sa among siesta gikan sa ala una-hangtud sa alas dos. Human niana, mobagting na pod alang sa among pag-ampo sa hapon. Usa na pod ka panahon sa pakig-istorya sa Ginoo nga maoy nagdala sa kamabulokon sa among kinabuhi sa seminaryo.

GOD BLEZ!

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14 thoughts on “Kinabuhing Seminarista

  1. beyon,

    maayo kaau imong mga lakang na gisugdan, malipayon kaau ko sa imong desisyon, hinaut unta nga ikaw magmalamposon sa imong bokasyon.

    • Yap, I said I am an Episcopalian before, but it’s not the Episcopal Church of the Philippines or any affiliate of the ECUSA which ordains women priests, consecrates gay bishops, and marries same-sex couples. I was involved in the International Communion of the Charismatic Episcopal Church (ICCEC) for approximately less than a year. I was just enthralled by the solemnity of the liturgical celebrations, the manners of their priests, and the warmth of the congregation. Something, I sadly admit, is lacking in my own church. I didn’t consider it conversion since I still confess the same Catholic faith. But as I realized, it’s something that lacks authority. So after moments of thought and for other reasons, I came back to my Church (Catholic Church) but bringing with me the experiences of nourishment, spiritual upliftment, and Christian warmth of the ICCEC which I would endeavor to plant in my own congregation if God wills that I become a priest someday.

      I was also touched that when I told Fr. Piol (an ICCEC priest) that I “seem” to feel a desire for the priesthood and decided to pursue it in the Catholic Church, he gave me words of encouragement and told me that I heed that calling coz I will never find peace lest I follow His voice.

      Should you wish to know more about the ICCEC for apologetics purposes, you can visit their website http://www.cechome.com. or http://www.iccec-asia.org.

      GOD BLEZ!

  2. I see that you have the deep insight the Church needs for her priests. Please remain that way. The Church needs subtle-minded priests. Even though you can’t make it, you can be a good catholic layman.

    The episcopal church is a stone-throw away from our Church. Probably in the future, they will be reconciled to us.

    Pray for our Church that she’ll be ever victorious over her ailments. And oh, the secular seminary is also teeming with temptations in and out. Please be watchful. Amen

  3. Certainly, I like your term “stone-throw away.” It is the desire of the Church that her lost children would be reconciled to her someday. However, this prospect is becoming dimmer with regards to the Episcopal Church. I mean, they are becoming so liberal that the issues about women priests,women bishops, gay priests, gay bishops, same-sex marriage,and the latest issue about a woman priest who also confessed that she became a Muslim and while she pastored a local congregation she also participated in Islamic prayers and is a frequent figure in the mosque, are like strong currents drifting us farther and farther from each other. Yap, its a stone-throw away, across a huge wall. I just pray that the rest of the Anglican Communion especially in the Global South would remain steadfast. Probably, in the future there is still a prospect of reconciliation with these churches. Ultimately, I believe in what God can do, maybe the Episcopal Church will have a sudden U-Turn, who knows.
    Yap,you got it, it’s teeming with temptations. However, I am the type who possesses a repulsive look. If the temptation is about girls, they don’t bother to get close to me. So there’s only a potential temptation but never an actual one. Do I sound vague? hehe…
    I heard from Areder that you’re a former seminarian here in Cor Jesu,is that true?
    GOD BLEZ!

  4. September 25, 2009

    Dear Quinzo,

    Thank you for having a determined nga taga Looc desiring to become a priest. Kasagaran sa taga atoa moabroad dayon magpahimo ug dako nga balay, unya inig balik sa gawas mangutang ug iplete.

    By the way, after reading my short piece, pagbantay kay mobagting na pod! He.he.

    Victor O. Teves
    Batang Asinan

  5. ingon sila ug para pod sa akoa ” live life to the fullest” it is easy for us to say that word but hard to understand and do the things inside and outside of our character. paano kung hindi mangyari ang gusto mo? paano kung nakakulong ka sa sarili mong pagkatao? how can we live life to the fullest if the situation is very conflict.

    • Yap, I agree that we should live life to the fullest. In my study with ethics, it is the fervent desire of man to arrive at his ultimate end. I don’t mean death, by ultimate end I mean happiness. However, what happiness means and how to attain it varies in each person. And that is why there are certain aspects of my quest for happiness that you may question because we don’t have the same experience.

      What if di mangyari ang gusto ko? Actually, I’m here in the seminary to try and do my best towards that end which I consider my happiness. And if in trying I realized that I’m not for it, there maybe some pains, but life must go on. Aside from preparing myself for my entrance in the seminary is my preparation for whatever possibilities that may transpire in the future. Ikanga, it is God’s will and He only knows, however we will never have the chance to know his will if we don’t try it and that’s what I did.

      Hindi ako nakakulong. Though my life here in the seminaries is coupled with difficulties, joys, tears and happiness- I consider these things as trials.

      Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, -James 1:2

      That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
      -2 Corinthians 12:10

      Thanks for the comment!

      LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!

  6. “Many are called but few are chosen. Good for you bro. jst go on. u’r one in a few…I also pray for your success. But hinaot nga dili ka madugang sa mga maot ug batasan nga imbis maoy kasumbongan kay nagdahum ta nga dali mosabot kay taas ug iniskwelahan, ang uban mao naman hinooy likayan kay labilabi ka istrikto ug mura nag saop ang katawhan. Pwera lang sa maayo nga erap. I-ampo nato cla. May God Blez u!!!

  7. komusta inyong rector? dli ra hambog nga maoy makatakod sa uban seminarista? hinaot pa unta dli. maayo bya pod tingali nga angayan cguro nga iapil sa pamalandong nga ngano man nga adunay mga pari nga mas but-an pa man niya ang tawo nga walay grado ug wala ma-trained sa seminaryo? hinoon ang tawo dli perpekto. pro hinaot pa unta nga sa inyong pag-umol karon dli unta mo mahisama knlag batasan kung mapari na nga mosamot nuan ang kainsultador, worldly, ug ang uban mata pobre. hinaot pa bro…

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